Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Sunday, October 5, 2008

up .2 and SICK

My stomach hates me. I expect a loss tomorrow because of it!

Trying to figure out why I've stopped losing and in some cases gaining. I think my body doesn't trust me anymore.

I'm not sure how to earn back that trust. I am trying to assure it I am in this for the long haul. If I don't make it to my goal this round (which I won't), I will start again after the holidays. If I don't make it to my goal on my second round, I'll do a third. I am determined to release this weight. It's been long enough. I've learned more than I thought possible but it's time now.

Body, I know I've been a real bitch to you mentally, emotionally, and physically and you probably don't have a whole lot of reason to trust me, but I'm telling you, I've had enough and I know you have too. Trust me, and I'll trust you to release the weight which no longer serves either one of us. It's time. We deserve better. I love you, even if in past I've not always expressed that. Release with me.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Friday, October 3, 2008

up .6 pounds

for a total GAIN of 2.6 pounds this week.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Was down to 152.4 2 days ago

Up to 154.4 today.

Deeeeeeep breath.

I can do this.

RELAX.