Getting more organized here. VLCD day 4, 147.2

VLCD Day 3 was 147.5
VLCD Day 2 was 148.2
VLCD Day 1 (after load days) was 148.6
Load day 2 148.4
Load day 1 starting weight was 146.6

I have been sloppy with the weights, so here are the exact numbers. I'm still not at my starting weight before the loading. This, so far, is moving incredibly slowly, but I won't let that deter me.

I'd forgotten how emotional this all is. I wasn't thinking along those lines at all when I started, just that I needed to release this weight and this is how I knew how to do that.

I know I worked through a lot the last time, but the thing that strikes me so hard this time is how lonely I am. I know now that some bad habits have been born from that. I spend far too much time on my computer. I didn't realize though how much in self defense that was.

I'll elaborate tomorrow. I feel guilty and uncomfortable writing when I do get what limited time I do have with my husband and he just walked in the room. At least I'm organized with my numbers!

Until tomorrow!

Yesterday (day 1 VLCD), 148.6. Today, 148.2

Not a great loss after my first day of VLCD, however I told myself when I started this that I needed to be prepared for anything, that every round is different, and that there was a round when I didn't lose anything after my first day of the VLCD and it ended up being one of my best rounds.

I was so nervous about starting again, as it's been so long. It's just like riding a bike. So far, so good. Hopefully I won't get too bored. If the weight begins to fly off, I have no problem with boredom.

The weird dreams have started (I forgot about those!). I dreamed I actually was pregnant and people were accusing me of being delusional and paranoid. Fun!

I don't really have much to say. I just wanted to post my progress (or lack thereof). I'm determined to stay relaxed, go with the flow, and ride this round without (much) expectation.

OH, and I'm not going to take Maca this round. I found myself feeling flushed and dizzy at one point, and I think it may have been the maca. It's supposed to help balance hormones, and given I'm taking a pregnancy hormone, that may be counter productive. I'll start it back up after my round.

Off to have some lunch!

XOXOXOX

PS, LD check your PM on FB :)

148 day 2 load

I figured I'll need 60 days on HCG to lose what I want to lost. First I thought 1 42 day round and 1 21 day round, then I thought 3 short rounds, and now I've decided 2 30 day rounds. I am so ready to get back into the clothes I had to buy after releasing all that weight before.

I did some research, and psyllium husk is apparently okay on P2! So glad to find this out, as this is how I've been making sure I get enough fiber in my diet and it's made all the difference in my digestion. If you have a sluggish bowel, take psyllium husk!

I have started taking Maca for hormone balance. Anyone out there have experience with Maca and HCG?

Today I had 2 huge steaks cooked in butter for my load today. No sugar. No junk. Coffee with cream, and 2 steaks. And wine. No wine for a month! I'll be very curious about the weigh in tomorrow.

VLCD 1 in over a year tomorrow!

XOXOXOXO

146 day 1 load

Today I mixed my HCG (forgot the pregnancy tests!) and began day one of my load.

I forgot how much I hate, hate, HATE loading. I get sick fast. I don't eat typical load foods ever.

Tomorrow will be a steak day load which should have me feeling better.

My daughter donated her long hair to cancer patients today. I'll post pictures tomorrow.

I went to Costco and got my chicken, tilapia, asparagus, cucumbers, tobasco, and strawberries today! I'm set, aside from weighing and measuring each portion.

XOXO Load day 2 tomorrow, and then on to VLCD!

My mixing needles are in!

YAY!

I will mix in the morning and begin my load tomorrow! I have all kinds of things which will make me ill, and I'll follow day 1 of loading with 2 large grass fed organic steaks. 

I've not had time to research the doctor LD mentioned in the last posts comments, but I'll look tomorrow. Also, in place of Melba toast and grissini, I'm going to take 1.5 teaspoons of psyllium husk and .5 teaspoons of maca root. It should prove interesting.

I'm excited and I'm ready. After I release the weight I want to release, I will do one round a year, loading Fat Tuesday, and doing my round during Lent. It just seems so appropriate to me!

XOXOXOX

'Twas the night before P2...

Well, here it is. My saline arrived today, and my amber vials arrived Saturday. I bought oil free shampoo, crystal deodorant, oil free moisturizer,  stevia, and a new food scale. I'm set.

So far the plan is a 2 day load. 1st day will be food I love and never allow myself to have, and the second load day will be 2 large steaks to counteract the sodium and still allow for a good load day. I may change my mind on this and only do the steaks, but I'm not sure. 

I'm nervous. It's been over a year since I've done this! I'm really hoping it's like riding a bike. I used to be able to answer questions with total ease about the protocol. I found myself scouring old notes to try to remember how to mix it! 

This works for me and is the only thing that has. I have enough HCG to get back to the 100teens. I should be able to maintain that with a P3 diet and a yearly HCG round. I'm hypothyroid and can expect to be careful about food combining for the rest of my life. That's fine by me! 

I'm scared and excited. I will need to scour the blogs to see who else is doing this again for moral support. I can't wait to fit in my jeans again!

XOXO, my lovies.

PS - I think I'll read my blog from start to finish tomorrow. :)  

It's official. I need another round. 147

I had so much shame wrapped into this before, I had a hard time coming to grips but the fact of the matter is, I've always been careful and this isn't my fault. My body does fine for 3 months post HCG and then I need to be ultra careful. Even then, things come undone. I would have done another round had it not been for the medical stuff I was dealing with. Because I couldn't nip it in the bud, it creeped up on me.

After a lot of research, I don't trust the company conducting the heavy metal urine tests. If it were just a scam, meh. The fact that treatment can cause death; I need another opinion. They only test your urine with a drug to provoke the metals and then compare them to normal tests of the average population. They're supposed to test your urine without the provoking agent and then with it and compare those results.

So, all this said, I'm planning on one 42 day round and one 21 day round. This should get me to where I need to be. I also know that for maintenance as a hypothyroid person, this will need to be done annually or bi-annually. Period. You know what? There's no shame in that. 3 weeks once or twice a year? Sign me up.