VLCD #28 - 120.7 - New plan, lovies... new plan...

Wow! Down from 122. 120.7 on the NEW scale, 120.1 on the old one! Ah, teasey teasers!

So, yesterday was to be my last dose day, but then I had this lovely drop. That said, I will do what I did last round - dose so long as I'm releasing. The morning I step on the scale and see a gain (or even the same perhaps), I will stop dosing and take the day before as my LDW. I just assumed my body was done releasing until the lovely numbers today. The hunger has subsided as well. Very, very odd.

Happy Halloween!

I'm going to treat it as the Pagan holiday it is in the day, and gather everything I'd like to let go of and burn it (test results, contracts with clients who walked away, and some of the writing I did here). I'll have copies of everything I need still, but I want the symbolism of burning all that has haunted me this year. Yes, I watch Eastwick. I thought that was brilliant!

This evening it's trick or treating with the kiddos. My husband normally does this and I'm hoping he'll step up with year too. I did the whole school parade thing surrounded by screaming and H1N1 coughing infants as well as the day off thing with all day play dates. I prefer to stay home and hand out the goodies. We'll see if he sees it my way. He's already told me this year it's my turn. I'm just not seeing that. :)

Off to dose!

VLCD #27 - 2 new pimples and up .5

I'm craving chocolate in the worst way, as well as red meat. I'm planning a steak day for day one of my P3 just because I have my mouth SET for a filet mignon! PMS anyone?

So, 122 today. Day 27, and 122. Pre-load weight 123.4.

What have I accomplished though has been invaluable.

It has been a fantastic pattern interrupt. Some habits that needed breaking got the break they needed. I've been supporting my stressed out liver with great supplements and hope the next blood test has good news on that front.

I've faced some truths about myself and my family that I absolutely needed to face.

I've discovered some neglected corners in my soul that needed the light shown on them. I also had an ah-ha about my relationship with my natural father and realized he truly didn't mean to do this to me. It wasn't his intention to shape my world in such a twisted way and to make me feel the need to hide everything. He just did it. I'm not sure why that was such an important thing to realize, but it was. It removed any power he may have had in that area of my life. I'm not sure if I'm making sense. I hope I am.

All that aside, I measured myself the other day and though I barely lost anything this round, I did lose inches. I'll report official totals when I have my husband help me with it, but it looks like an inch off my bust (didn't know I had an inch to go!), a couple off my waist, and a couple off my thighs. Like I said though, I'll wait until he measures me as I am notorious for messing that up!

Thanks everyone. :)

Rumbly rumbly tumbly - VLCD #26 (oops, I was off by a day before) 121.6

Down .1 on both the new and old scale. Old scale has me at 120.8. Goodness, I would looooove to see 119.9 :D I suspect I will when I hit P3 - for some reason I drop the first couple days. Unless I have PMS, which is possible - Full moon, and I'm breaking out. Snarfle.

So, I'm thinking rather than having my sorbet, I'll make protein shakes with my strawberries until I hit P3.

I am showing homes tonight. It's with a guy that I showed homes to last year before I started my first round. Last time he saw me, I was close to 170 pounds. Hee!

I have no dresses, I realized. I was hoping to wear my new kick ass boots with a dress or skirt and I only have one skirt at this point that is really a Spring/Summer skirt (and one I've hung onto for 12 years!). My kids get out of school early today and I'm wondering if I have time to scoot out and do a little shopping. It would be nice to have a couple new things I could wear for work that aren't just slacks.

Oh, I have my appointment with the psychic next Thursday. I am really looking forward to it. She is beyond amazing and does it all - palm reading, numerology, astrology, and tarot reading, as well as her own intuition. I saw her 2 years ago and was blown away. I saw her again near the first of this year and what she described as happening to me between the meetings absolutely blew my mind. She had specific dates about major spiritual and physical transformation that coincided DATE by DATE as to when I started and stopped both HCG rounds, and described the transformation so perfectly. Anyway, I'm very much looking forward to discussing my situation with her and gaining the confidence I need to take the next step.

Thanks for listening to me! Happy releasing, stabilizing, etc.!

STARVING!

Oh my heavens. That "ravenous hunger" Dr. S. talks about experiencing for those with no more abnormal fat to lose is UPON ME! I've already had my 1.5 pounds of cucumbers and 2 (YES 2!) portions of protein... and I am STARVING.

I am upping my calories, no more than 1000 and P2 friendly foods. Damn, I so wanted to see the 110s, but there was no guarantee I would anyway, and there is no way I can live with this hunger. No. WAY. Friday will be my last dose day. Monday evening I will be in P3.

VLCD #24 - 121.7 (120.9 on the old scale) - down .5 from yesterday

Still up .5 from a few days ago.

I added the protein shake, but I only had one other portion of protein. I think some part of me is really scared about adding more calories in the off chance that I could, in fact, get to the 110s. I have about 12 days left of hcg but can stop at anytime now. I am getting markedly more hungry. I really think I should be having 3 protein portions at this point.

My mom, who as you know is one of my best friends, read all of the insights I put down here last night. She had a good thought. We know a psychic here in town who is by far the most intuitive we've ever come across. She's called it almost every time (she does phone consultations, by the way) and mom suggested I may want to take all of these insights to her and have a reading. It may be just what I need to focus that energy in such a way that I will feel confident when bringing it to my husband.

So, I'll work on the letter, and I'll make an appointment with her. Perhaps for the full moon if I can. That seems quite appropriate.

BOOTS!

VLCD #23 122.2

Meh.

I'm adding protein. A Jay Robb protein shake, to be precise. 1 scoop of plain unsweetened egg white protein powder, a dropper full of chocolate flavored stevia and 100 grams of frozen strawberries. Deeeeeeeeelish. Totally bites my hunger. 130ish cals.

I'm completely uninspired to write but I wanted to report in.

Off to get ready for my day... dental cleaning, oh JOY!

OH, I almost forgot! I bought knee high black high heel boots - I'll share soon! WEE!!