119.3 (2.6 over LDW)

Thanks for all the support, especially from my last post.

I needed to get that out there. I'm feeling so much better now since I did.

@LD, I had the lump checked by my surgeon when I discovered it in July. He feels it's nothing and suspects it's breast tissue that was loose after my surgery, but wants me back in sometime this fall so he can check again, unless I feel it change and then he wants me in sooner. As far as I can tell, it's remained the same shape and size which is awfully good news.

MRI - Nothing. No fracture, no infection, no tumor. He thinks it will resolve itself on it's own, but just to be on the safe side, he wants me to have a neuro consult. God, I'm hemorrhaging money. We have a $3k deductible.

So. Here's the deal. If my husband was offered a job out of state today, we're not ready to go. My kids' rooms need wallpaper stripped, walls painted, and all the original carpet in this house needs to be replaced, all the walls pretty much need painting, and the fence needs to be replaced. It's chop wood, carry water time. I need to focus on getting this house in shape. Not only will that keep me busy and focused, it will carry me to the next phase where we will be ready if such an opportunity presents itself. This has me feeling so much more "in control" however illusionary that may be. Who cares. I feel better.

I need to vent here more often. It's why I started this blog to begin with. To deal with the emotions in a constructive way rather than imploding, sometimes without my knowledge.

Thanks again all y'all. Off to check on you!