Sorry.

I wiped out the last few posts. I needed to vent, but I felt weird about it later. You all know how scared I've been about speaking my heart. We are communicating a bit, though it's still very tense, and just as I feared, my lack of clear and open communication in the past has been harmful. I HATE being so afraid to talk about what I feel, but I know too that just figuring out what that is is a real challenge.

I'm going to try to eat something, though my stomach is in knots and has been since yesterday evening. I'm down almost a pound, +4.5 above LDW.