Going down.

Not by much... just .3 but a loss is a loss. Certainly not what I normally get from steak days so I think unless I am back "within range", my best bet is just to eat clean.

Part of why I've not been doing so well with the workouts is that I've not been sure what to do. So many options that I just get overwhelmed, so today I decided I will do at the very least 20 minutes of yoga and 20 minutes of pilates. If I manage more, great, but I must do AT LEAST the yoga and pilates. 40 minutes a day is totally doable and I generally will go longer once I start, since it feels so good. So my new 30 day challenge starts today. I managed the minimum, but today was busy getting ready for the closing which took much of my attention.

Speaking of... WE CLOSED!! My clients will have their keys tomorrow! WOOT! I am so happy for them. They are such nice people. My family is invited to visit in 2 weeks along with their mortgage broker and her family, so the kids can all have a play date and visit with their horse. It should be great!

I am feeling so much better since making my decision yesterday. I know I have a future in helping people release weight for good via the protocol that could end up as my main career, but right now is not the time for that. I am learning to trust my gut and know that everything happens just as it should.

I am beginning to feel that zen I've been looking for. Ironically, it's been since I realized that seeking balance was counter intuitive. That once I can let go seeking balance, I will find it. That the seeking is part of an old pattern of non-self acceptance. I am extreme. I am intense. I am driven. That's okay. Normal doesn't have to be my goal. I am extraordinary, and as soon as I can accept that completely, I will find that balance.

Love you guys. :)