Friday, January 30, 2009

frustrated beyond belief

I started R2P2 on the 26th loading through the 28th with a net gain of 3 pounds (2 pounds more than my last loading which I was happy about and hoping I wouldn't be starving the first week like I was last time). Yesterday was day 1 of VLCD and I was so thrilled that I WASN'T HUNGRY! It was a very easy day and I went to the bathroom all day and all night, and I could feel myself releasing. I was so excited to get on the scale this morning. I fully expected at least a 2 pound loss. I weighed in after my load days at 142.6. This morning after VLCD, I weigh 142. 142?!? On my FIRST VLCD?? I got a pregnancy test and the HCG showed up positive. Here was what I ate:

Food Log for 29 January 2009
Meal/Foods Quantity Calories Protein(g) Fat(g) Carbs(g)
07:30 AM Breakfast 3 0.57 0.09 0
Coffee, brewed from grounds, prepared with tap water 2 cup (8 fl oz) 3 0.57 0.09 0
12:00 PM Lunch 51 3.1 0.84 7.67
Cucumber, peeled, raw 1.875 large (8-1/4" long) 51 3.1 0.84 7.67
03:00 PM Snack 2 146 24.64 0.16 11.47
Strawberries, frozen, unsweetened 1 cup, unthawed 46 0.64 0.16 10.47
jay robb protein shake 1 scoop 100 24 0 1
06:00 PM Supper 224 29.44 1.46 23.34
Cucumber, peeled, raw 6.11 cup, pared, chopped 78 4.79 1.3 11.86
jay robb protein shake 1 scoop 100 24 0 1
Strawberries, frozen, unsweetened 1 cup, unthawed 46 0.64 0.16 10.47
Totals 424 57.74 2.56 42.48

I did the Jay Robb unsweetened egg white protein shake for my protein as I had great success last round.

What is unknown is where I am at cycle wise as I am sans uterus but other than that, this is a TOTAL mystery to me. Any ideas?!?

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Let's get this party STARTED!!

Okay! I gained 2 pounds first load day, another 2 the second load day, and I lost a pound on the 3rd for a total net gain of 3 pounds. MUCH better than my first round which had a net gain of just 1 pound. So far, my hopes have come true. The first week of VLCD last round I wanted to gnaw my arm off I was so hungry. It's almost 1 in the afternoon and all I've had is 2 cups of black coffee and 50 calories worth of cucumbers and I am NOT HUNGRY AT ALL! I've heard people have had this experience - looks like I did a far better job loading this time than last because I feel just fine. Well, I am dizzy but I've been dizzy for about a month. I think I have some inner ear thing happening.

So, I'm contemplating when to do my egg white protein shake with strawberries as I truly am not hungry.

I've gone to the bathroom half a dozen times. I remember this from last time. Release, baby! I will be so curious how much I release from today to tomorrow. So, my pre-load weight was 139.6. Post load weight is 142.6. :)

Monday, January 26, 2009

139.6 and my first load day for P2R2 (r2d2? couldn't resist)

OKAY, here we go! I've dosed. I wish I were feeling better. The thought of food is nauseating and I need to load! I've had half n half in my coffee but that's it so far. Perhaps some cheese.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

140 and tomorrow a new round

Bless my husband for mixing my meds. I find it so hard!

Tomorrow is a major eclipse. New moon in Aquarius (my sign) and major out with the old in with the new energy for all tomorrow. This is why I chose tomorrow to begin again this protocol. I must admit, I am more nervous now than I was before but also more confidant that I will achieve my goals.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Perfect! Aquarius:

This is perfect - I decided to start my next round on my birthday (the 28th) because of the new moon, and have my load days the 26, 27, and 28th. Check this out!

"...

The solar eclipse, a new moon, will arrive next on January 26. An eclipse is a massively important aspect and will likely open a path. I like solar eclipses because they are new moons, known for fresh starts. This eclipse is a rare one because it falls within a significant five degrees of Jupiter, planet of happiness and good fortune. I feel this eclipse will quicken the pace and begin to bring you the kinds of opportunities that would be right up your alley.

If your birthday falls on January 26, or within five days of this date, you will feel this day quite strongly and will have a whole year filled with happiness. I say that because in your case it falls on or near what astrologers call "your solar return," which means the Sun has come back to where it was when you were born.

Some eclipses deliver their news immediately, on or within a week of the eclipse, or one month to the day later, plus or minus five days.

Also watch the period next month, from February 10-14, when Mars will orbit over the precise degree of the eclipse plus or minus one degree. Of these days, the most likely day to hear news will be on February 12.

Occasionally you will see a person leave your everyday life on an eclipse. If this happens, it would more likely be a man. Depending on where your Sun is in your chart, it could be, for example, that a top executive leaves your firm or a friend moves to another part of the country. These are but two of many possibilities, so keep your eyes open. I don't think this is as likely to happen with this particular eclipse - this one seems so very positive in so many ways.

I should mention that sometimes a health concern shows up on an eclipse. Your ruler, Uranus, is being opposed by Saturn right now, so sometimes this means you have to do something to bring your health into balance. You may be required to follow a certain discipline or routine, for that is what Saturn usually does. For example, your doctor will say, "no salt," or "exercise more," or whatever else to become healthier.

If you should hear of any concern, with Jupiter nearby you should expect really good results by following the program - Jupiter is called the great healer and planet of miracles, so do as your doctor says! I feel it is unlikely that you would find any health concern, because this eclipse falls so close to the luckiest day of the year. Nevertheless, I cannot see everything in your chart, so should that happen, it will be a sign that the eclipse is being your friend by showing you what's needed to be done to feel tip top again. Solar eclipses are associated with fresh starts, which is why I am so enthusiastic about this one...."

http://astrologyzone.com/forecasts/monthly/aquarius_full.php

:)

By the way, post holiday (ate anything I wanted, so long as I wrote it down) I am at 137.8!