Day 4 VLCD 127.4 ( - 1.9 total down 5.9)

6 pounds in 3 days?? WOW. Just WOW. I've got another .8 to go to be rid of the load weight. I can't believe how much I gained during those load days but am equally astonished to see how quickly I'm releasing it. 9.4 pounds away from my goal weight and 26-40 more days to go.

Thank you ALL for your kind words and support! It's been kind of a strange couple of days. On the one hand, so far this is the easiest round I've had. Hunger? What hunger? Consistent large losses one after the other (I know it's week one but I've never in all my rounds experienced this as others have), and I feel confident and good. On the other hand, I'm going back and forth with feeling of doom about my health and doing my best to remain calm. I sure hope to know more this afternoon.

The wrap was awesome. The only thing they didn't do that I expected them to was wrap my arms. I've done this before, so I somewhat knew what to expect. I was given a mediation to listen to that guided me through empowerment, as well as glasses that flashed lights to take you to an altered state to help with the guided meditation. That alone was worth it!! Forget losing weight so much, but I could feel my body detoxing, my mind relaxing, and my spirits lifting. I may sign up to go in monthly for those benefits alone.

Ack, I gotta take the kids to school! I better leave. THEN I NEED TO DOSE. I haven't yet (here's my reminder to me - ha!)!

Love you guys. Thanks for being in my corner!

EDITED TO ADD:

The scan came back CLEAR. No blood clots! I'm in no immediate danger so I'll keep on with the protocol and keep investigating!

Day 3 VLCD R4 129.3 ( - 1.8, total down 4)

BACK to the 120s! PHEW! No teasing THIS round!

Just a little over 2.5 to go to be below my load weight. I am pretty amazed at the 2 days of high losses, even though this is just the beginning of my round! I am thrilled. 11.3 from my goal and 27-41 more days to go.

I'm feeling calmer. The podiatrist did recommend a cardiologist to have the ultrasound on my lower vascular system, but I'm asking around first. I've got an email into my plastic surgeon to see who he'd recommend, as well as asking some friends. The podiatrist was under the impression this started after my surgery, which I could see would lead him to thinking this may be a DTV, however after driving away, I remember this happened when my in-laws came to visit us for my husband's 40th which was Dec. 2008. Looking at all the symptoms, it looks like a blocked lymph node is most likely the cause. This can be as simple a procedure as exercise, and as complex and draining it. My mother had this happen to her (different node). The podiatrist said the wrap may actually help with getting my circulation moving so let's hope it helps. My foot is far less swollen today. He wrapped it up at the office. I have one of those ankle/foot support thingies that I'll wear after I get dressed.

It'll be a busy day today - showing homes, body wrap, and my son has an audition to go to so I'll be running around. Probably a good thing, no?

Dosing as I type...

Thank you ALL so very much for the support and advice. I promise, I'll take care of this and get to the root of the problem.

*HUGS*

Edited to add


I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon for the ultrasound. I will keep you all posted. Think clear thoughts.

Scared.

The podiatrist couldn't tell me what was wrong but suggested I talk to an expert on veins who can perform a Doppler on my leg to see if there is an obstruction. He repeatedly asked if I was awakened in the night by pain, which I'm not. After coming home and researching, I can see he was wondering if it might be gout. After reading all that it could be sans foot injury, gout looks the least scary compared to everything else I'm finding.

I just don't know what to do. If it were constantly swollen, I'd be more scared I think, however this is occurring more and more often (started Dec 2008, recurring maybe once more in 2009 and now a couple times in 2010). It's been all I can do to force myself to eat today.

I wonder if the gel they apply for the doppler would be non-HCG compliant? I really hate to stop this round, especially knowing this swelling will go away. It always does.

*deep breath*

R4, VLCD 2, 131.1

- 2.2! YES!!! I remember a round where day 1 loss was less than a pound and I was so disappointed. Knowing this was a possibility, this had me extra happy about today's release. This has me about 13 pounds from my goal with anywhere from 28-42 more days to go. In looking at the calendar, I will be done with this round either the Full Moon this month or the New Moon next - either way, appropriate.

I've had a couple moments of hunger, but nothing I can't deal with. For the most part, it's been almost non-existent (or at least not noticeable).

I'll be very curious as to what tomorrow brings. I'm hoping very much to be back into the 120s.

CRAP! I just remembered I've not measured!! I'll do that right after this post.

I have a call into a podiatrist that is less than a mile from where I live. If I don't hear by 9, I'll call back again. I'd really like to be seen for that before the body wrap (also just up the street) at 10:30.

With that, I best scoot and get dressed! Hugs and sunshine and all that good stuff your way!

Oh boy. VLCD 1, R4. 133.3!

That is 20 pounds higher than my lowest weight. It's 15.9 pounds higher than my LDW. It seems so insurmountable. Gads, I had really hoped this round would get me back into that territory but I can honestly say I have no idea if that is possible or not. I'm really trying to remain calm. I'd said this was going to be my INCHES and pounds round, less focus on the pounds and more the fit but I'm telling you with numbers like these, that's going to be tough for me. I can't believe I gained 6.5 on my load days!! I don't think I've ever done that before.

Okay, I've dosed. It's 10:30 - I slept in this morning. Time for some coffee with vanilla cream stevia and then I need to figure out if I want my fruit now, or my protein. I'm not particularly hungry and after 2 days of loading, absolutely nothing sounds appetizing!

So I'm also not sure how long this round will be. I have enough for 42 days. I hadn't planned on going longer than 28 days, but that was when I thought I would be starting out at a much lower number.

I hate feeling out of control.

Body, we know this works. I want this to be a flawless cheat free round. I'll do my part by following the rules. Please do your part by releasing. Expect lots of tea, water, and praise from me. I love you. Let's DO THIS THING!

I forgot to mention, I have this weird thing happening with my right foot. Every now and then, it swells up like a balloon and one spot near the front feels sore. I thought it was one particular pair of shoes, because I switched them and the swelling and pain went away. Only it comes back every now and then despite what shoes I'm wearing. I made an appointment with a doctor last time this happened but by the time my appointment came up, the swelling was gone so I cancelled. It's BACK! Part of me is scared to be seen in case they want to prescribe something not HCG friendly. I know it will go away again. I wonder if I should be seen now or when it happens again post P2?

Stuffed

I've had around 3000 calories and 200 grams of fat. Good. Lord.

Thanks to ALL of you for the encouragement! HCG works. It does. I've been extremely successful with it. Still, there is part of me that is afraid it won't work. Silly, I know. Very silly. I also know I have more soul searching to do and this should be very exciting.

I didn't have a hamburger or pizza, but I did get my tortilla and cheese as well as my fondu, and a taste of halva. The milk shakes really did my appetite in, but it also accomplished the goal of massive fat in one shot.

I forgot to measure before loading. I'll measure tomorrow. Should be fascinating to see if there is a massive difference after the body wrap. I'm very excited to try this in conjunction with the VLCD! I am hoping it will help me release not only the load weight, but to stimulate my metabolism enough to propel me forward (behind?) a bit more quickly.

OH, we're pregnant. I tested the HCG with a home pregnancy test and I've never seen it show positive so quickly! SUPERCHARGED!

Hugs and love to you guys. You truly lift me up.

Ouuuuch!

Load day 2 - 130.2 (+3.6!!!! pounds. Gads!)

130s. I'd suspected I'd see them again after loading, but after 1 day of loading? Good lord.

I have a headache. Threw our annual Queen's Day party and between the food and the booze... blech.

I had toyed with the idea of loading for 3 days but after this gain, I'm rethinking that. I was so disappointed to see that number again. I remember it taking a week to break into the 120s. I really hope I can avoid that this time.

I'm just exhausted. I did dose - I remember from previous rounds being very forgetful about whether I dosed or not, so here it is, in writing, I dosed. :)

I'm going to catch up with you guys, grab something fattening and sprawl out on the couch.