Up over 2 pounds, infection in my incision, son has a fever of 102.5 and puking.

His doctor said ride it out. My doctor said come in tomorrow. I'll keep you posted.

1.7 loss from the steak day

I. Love. That.

Just reporting in. I may need another super clean day tomorrow as today I had brunch with a friend and mimosas were had. Not worried about the champagne, but I honestly cannot remember the last time I had OJ. Oh, and bacon and cashews were had... and certainly not enough water. Trying to rectify that now but it's late. :)

Excited about the losses Liz and LD reported! WOOT WOOT!

Sorry about that...

... definitely had a melancholy moment there. Thanks for all the kind words and support.

My daughter isn't throwing up anymore so that's a huge step in the right direction. As far as the sadness with my parents' old home, I've asked my son to help me figure out how to take the gate out in between our yards and to simply make it a fence again (we had a gate put in so we could simply visit via our back yards). I think once there is less access it may make it more final. LD, I love the idea that perhaps new friends are on the way who will love it as much as my parents and I have. Perhaps I'll light a candle and send a wish to the Universe for that.

THOSE DANGED CHICKEN CHEESE SPINACH BALLS!!! Last time I ate them I was up 2.2 the next day. I had them yesterday and am up 2.4 today! Eegads. At least I know I didn't eat an extra 10,500 calories and this is water. Even so, I went to find some slacks for when I go show homes today. I apparently returned the 4s I bought before and only have 6s. I thought that with the gain perhaps they'd fit. No go. They fall off of me. Oh what a problem to have! Screw the number on the scale. ;) 

That said, any petite people wearing 6s out there? Otherwise I need to sell these on ebay. I definitely need to go shopping. I'll wear my corduroys today.

Thanks all y'all. I am wondering if I have PMS or something given how emotional I was yesterday. Regardless, it's a wonderful feeling knowing you're all "out there" with kind words of support. Means so much!

Rough

Hi sweets,

120.9 today. I expect more tomorrow as I had spaghetti for dinner.

Well, today wasn't easy. It actually started last night when my daughter couldn't stop throwing up. This continued into today. Fortunately, we seem to have hit a pause as of 2 this afternoon.

Emotionally it's been hard as well. My parents' old home, which I can see from my living room windows and back yard, went on the market 11 days ago. Today, the power was turned on. Right now as I type this, I can see their lights on and a couple have been there, I'm assuming the agent and her husband, cleaning up the yard, etc., etc.

It wasn't so bad until the back porch lights went on. I remember my mom putting them up; a string of lights all around the overhang. Seeing them on tonight flicked a switch on in me that opened up a flood of sorrow. It pains me to see their home no longer their home.

I know I should feel relief that the home will finally have a chance to be loved again. Letting go of memories of Easter, Thanksgiving, Sundays with champagne and tarot readings, my kids in their backyard playing, watching the inauguration and us all crying tears of joy, sleepovers for the kids, etc., etc is hard. It's really hard. I'd finally sort of gotten used to seeing it cold, empty, and dark. Now to see the lights on again and knowing nothing about those who turned them on is really painful. I know it sounds ridiculous. It is. When you think of the horrors others are experiencing right now... but it still hurts. I miss my mommy.

Hey darlings

I was at 120.6 yesterday. 121.3 (I fell into some chocolate and salt - could it be my TOM??) today. I'm totally not stressed. Size 4, flat as a table tummy, and still a healthy BMI. Add to that I know I'll be doing another round. So long as I don't gain, hovering at around 120 is perfectly fine with me. I know without my breasts I'd be in the 100 teens. Meh. It's a nice feeling to relax.

I've been processing a lot which I'm sure is why I've been exhausted (couple that with being out of my thyroid meds for the last 4 days - the Armour is back at my pharmacy!).

I've been struggling with my weight for 8 1/2 years. To suddenly not be struggling has left me a little lost. Talk about having to break a habit. It was so a part of my identity for so long.

I want my husband to touch my stomach. For years I pushed his hands away when he tried because I hated my stomach. I hated how it felt. Adjusting to this new body is a trip. I need to train him to let his hands go there again.

I know I'll adjust. It's just a lot to process after struggling for so long and now finding myself in love with this body. I think too because the HCG is so dramatic so fast and then surgery - it's just it wasn't a slow process. My mind and emotions really need to catch up.

On another note, my sister wants to try this. I am so incredibly excited for her and will help her every step of the way. I just hope she's in that place you need to be in order to work the protocol. She works at a winery, for heaven's sake!

Thanks again for being on this journey with me. I have some plans for my next step and I'm excited to share them with you when I'm a little closer to that. I am off to read your updates! :)

121 - lowest since I started weighing again

I've pretty much decided I'm doing another round. This one will be like Autumn Rose's reshaping round. I've also  decided once a year I'll do a round for detox purposes.

It's been a hell of a day (or 2). A very good friend of mine was in crisis with her fiance and I ended up with her and her girls last night. I'm happy to help, but I am extremely empathic so it really beat me up and sucked me dry emotionally. I'm going to need a few days to recover. My husband did tell me after I'd counseled both she and her fiance that I went all "Dr. Phill on their asses" and was fairly impressed. :)With that, my job at PDA, my real estate/property management job and a kid home sick, I am totally exhausted.

So here's what's for dinner:

YUM.

Sorry P2ers... Soon though.... SOON... P3 friendly!

Thanks for the comments, all of you. Your words spoke to my condition.

Love you and off to check your blogs (if you have one)!

Thanks for all the birthday wishes! I've missed you guys.

I'm finally caught up on my blogs. I pretty much celebrated my birthday since Thursday. I am determined now to put my head down and get work done. It's the first of the month so I have property management duties I must get to. I am also expecting to hear back on an offer I submitted for my client on Friday. So there's that. then there are the bills. I must pay the bills. I need to pick up my thyroid medication and I need to return some shoes. I am no longer a 6.5 but a 6 after all the weight loss. I bought these for my birthday and now I need them in a 6.

I don't know if it's the stars or not, but I'm feeling totally discombobulated lately. I miss my mom so much and find myself not wanting to do anything but snuggle with my husband and kids. I'm restless. I don't feel all that hot. I think I still have a candida issue. I need to do something. I am absolutely desperate for balance like someone with their head on fire is desperate to find a lake.

I know I'd feel better if I started yoga. I'm just afraid. I over did it when I tried last time. I still feel puffy around my belly. I'm thinking maybe I'll make an appointment to see my surgeon. Last time I saw him, he offered to numb a spot where the stitch is trying to come out on my hip and pull it out. I didn't want one more thing done to me and opted to let it either work its way out on its own, or to dissolve and soften. Neither is happening and it hurts when anything rubs on it, like my jeans. So, I think I may go back and have him take care of it and at the same time, get his opinion on my belly and whether or not he thinks it's overly swollen. It looks flat, but when I lay on my back, I can make it do that water bed thing.

Sorry to have babbled I guess I just needed to organize my thoughts. I'm off to make a list of to dos and will thoroughly enjoy marking them ta done!

Have a wonderful day!