Monday, February 1, 2010

Thanks for all the birthday wishes! I've missed you guys.

I'm finally caught up on my blogs. I pretty much celebrated my birthday since Thursday. I am determined now to put my head down and get work done. It's the first of the month so I have property management duties I must get to. I am also expecting to hear back on an offer I submitted for my client on Friday. So there's that. then there are the bills. I must pay the bills. I need to pick up my thyroid medication and I need to return some shoes. I am no longer a 6.5 but a 6 after all the weight loss. I bought these for my birthday and now I need them in a 6.

I don't know if it's the stars or not, but I'm feeling totally discombobulated lately. I miss my mom so much and find myself not wanting to do anything but snuggle with my husband and kids. I'm restless. I don't feel all that hot. I think I still have a candida issue. I need to do something. I am absolutely desperate for balance like someone with their head on fire is desperate to find a lake.

I know I'd feel better if I started yoga. I'm just afraid. I over did it when I tried last time. I still feel puffy around my belly. I'm thinking maybe I'll make an appointment to see my surgeon. Last time I saw him, he offered to numb a spot where the stitch is trying to come out on my hip and pull it out. I didn't want one more thing done to me and opted to let it either work its way out on its own, or to dissolve and soften. Neither is happening and it hurts when anything rubs on it, like my jeans. So, I think I may go back and have him take care of it and at the same time, get his opinion on my belly and whether or not he thinks it's overly swollen. It looks flat, but when I lay on my back, I can make it do that water bed thing.

Sorry to have babbled I guess I just needed to organize my thoughts. I'm off to make a list of to dos and will thoroughly enjoy marking them ta done!

Have a wonderful day!


Christy in Seattle said...

Maybe you're just still a little afraid to trust that this new you is here to stay? What do you think?

helderheid said...

I think there is some truth to that, Christy.

lavenderdiva said...

Girlfriend: YOU ARE HOT! Whether you feel like it or not, you are. You have a body to die for!

Go to your Dr., get that stitch out, and put all that behind you. You'll feel so much better. I agree with Christy, I think you are a little afraid to really embrace the new you. Its a lot to take in, all the changes you've made recently. All the weight you've lost, and the new shape you now have. Not to mention the changes within your family- your parents moving, and your wanting to move too. There's a lot going on, my friend!

I've never done yoga before, but I know there's all sorts of yoga. Maybe there is one that isn't so vigorous you could try? That way, you'd feel like you were moving in a better direction for your spirit. Do you meditate or pray? I find just spending a little time each day doing that, helps to center me, and clear my head of competing thoughts.

Take each day step-by-step. Sometimes it seems like you're juggling so much at once, that time for you sort of gets lost. Don't get overwhelmed, and don't be afraid. You are much stronger and capable than you give yourself credit for! I believe in you, my friend!!

much love to you...

Lis said...

These ladies hit the nail on the head, so I am just going to say "ditto" and agree! The last pics you posted you were looking great! I cant wait to see the next photo shoot! Hugs my friend, you are doing so good!!

Beaker said...

Wow, great advice, lavenderdiva. I can only echo it. Do something positive for yourself. You're restless because you want to move and you have no control over that. So do something, however small, that you can control.