Crap.

117.6, up .3, dosed anyway, I've had lunch and I'm still hungry. Crap.

To make up for my previous way too long post, something short and sweet

I've been logging my calories and exercise for years using fitness assistant.

Here is a graph of my weight loss in the last 3 years. Can you tell when I did my rounds? :)

Click on the image for a larger version.

Hello m'dears...

117.3 today. I dosed. I must say though, this is getting REALLY old. I am so friggin' bored. My taste buds are gearing up for P3 in a big way.

My jeans are falling off me. My size 6 jeans. I cannot believe this! I am NOT complaining. This is incredible to me. I cannot believe I am back. I am BACK.

I spent much of the day researching plastic surgery. I think I may have found my surgeon. I'm thinking boobs first. Mine are gone. Between the breast feeding and the weight loss, they are gone, gone, gone. Thank goodness for really good bras.

So looking for a plastic surgeon in Utah is an interesting experience. The local dominate faith says no to tattoos and extra piercings, but is all for breast augmentation. I mean the clinics here are like the sex shops in Holland - on every corner it seems. So, I looked and looked, and then decided to look on facebook for kicks. I searched for Utah Plastic Surgeon. facebook grabbed people I had mutual friends with and I think I may have found my guy. He is in Park City and he is a friend of another friend of mine who I know from Quaker meeting. He's apparently a Quaker and completely on the same page as I am politically. Now of course, this wouldn't be enough for me and just looking at his webpage, I would have most likely skipped him altogether. No before or after pictures which I consider a must, and the website looks like he could have put it together and did so 15 years ago. Because he and I have a mutual friend and we're like minded people, I decided I had to investigate further and not dismiss him for lack of web advertising skills. His education and resume' are INCREDIBLE:

Dr. Leonard is a board certified plastic and reconstructive surgeon and has been in practice in Utah for the past twenty-five years. His areas of special interest are facial rejuvenation (including the forehead, eyes, cheeks and neck), skin resurfacing, smoothing the contours of the face with fat transfer, breast modification (both enlargement and reduction), tummy tuck, and suction fat removal. He also sees patients for reconstruction following the treatment of cancers, burns, and injuries.

High school:Highland Park High School, Dallas (1961)
Spring Branch High School (1962) and Memorial High School (1963), Houston
graduated, Edina-Morningside High School, Minneapolis (1964)Undergraduate:Johns Hopkins University, Baltimore, Maryland
graduated, Bachelor of Arts, 1968Medical School:Johns Hopkins University, Baltimore, Maryland
graduated, Doctor of Medicine, 1971General Surgery:straight surgery intern, University of Colorado Medical Center,
Denver 1971-2
general surgery resident, 1972-5, senior resident, 1974-5
program director: Thomas E. Starzl, M.D.Plastic Surgery:Johns Hopkins University, 1977-79.
program director: John E. Hoopes, M.D.Maxillo-facial Surgery:Maryland Institute of Emergency Medical Services, University of Maryland, 1979
program director: Paul M. Manson, M.D.Hand Surgery:Raymond M. Curtis Hand Center, Union Memorial Hospital, 1980
program directors: Raymond M. Curtis, M.D. and E. F. Shaw Wilgis, M.D.

Assistant Professor, Department of Surgery, Division of Plastic Surgery, Johns Hopkins University, 1979-1981

Assistant Professor, Department of Surgery, Division of Plastic Surgery, University of Utah, 1981-1983

Associate Professor, Department of Surgery, Division of Plastic Surgery, University of Utah 1983

Associate Clinical Professor, Department of Surgery, Division of Plastic Surgery, University of Utah, 1986 to present

Since 1986 Dr. Leonard has been a volunteer with Interplast, Inc., an organization of plastic surgeons from throughout the world based in Palo Alto, California, which sends teams on invitation to developing countries to perform reconstructive surgeries at no cost to patients in the host country. The majority of patients are children with problems including birth defects of the lip, palate and hand, and scars from burns and trauma. A team of surgeons, anesthesiologists, recovery and operating room nurses, a pediatrician, and one or two support persons (usually numbering around ten), spend two weeks in country working with local surgeons to treat between eight and one hundred twenty patients. The team takes all of its supplies, dressings, sutures, instruments, necessary machinery, like cautery, suction and an autoclave with it. Physicians pay all of their own travel and living expenses. The nurses expenses are paid through charitable contributions. Dr. Leonard has made fifteen trips to eight countries over the past thirteen years. The countries are Honduras, Mexico, Bolivia, Chile, Philippines, China, Nepal, and Bangladesh. Larry and June first met on Interplast trip to Shanghai in 1993 and try to do at least one trip together per year.

Dr. Leonard has practiced plastic and reconstructive surgery in Utah for twenty-eight years. He completed his residency training in plastic surgery at Johns Hopkins University in Baltimore where he also attended college and medical school. Prior to joining the faculty at the University of Utah in 1981 he taught plastic surgery at Hopkins for two years. Since entering private practice in 1986 he has worked principally at the LDS Hospital where he has served two terms as chief of plastic surgery. His areas of special interest are facial rejuvenation( including the forehead, eyes, cheeks, and neck), skin resurfacing, smoothing of the contours of the face with fat transfer, breast modification (both enlargement and reduction), tummy tuck, and suction fat removal. He also sees patients for reconstructive surgery following treatment for cancer, burns, and injury particularly using microsurgical techniques. He has offices in both Salt Lake City and Park City.

Dr. Leonard is a native of South Carolina, as are his parents, his brother, and most of his relatives as far back as seven generations. He grew up in Dallas, Texas and attended high schools in Dallas, Houston, and Minneapolis. He obtained his undergraduate education at Johns Hopkins University in Baltimore and remained at Hopkins for medical school, graduating in 1971. He then completed a general surgery residency at the University of Colorado Medical Center in Denver and has obtained board certification in general surgery. He served two years as a major in the United States Air Force Medical Corp as a general surgeon stationed in Northern California before returning to Johns Hopkins for plastic surgery residency, which he completely in 1979. He remained in Baltimore for addition subspecialty training in surgery of the hand and a maxillofacial trauma fellowship. In 1980-81 he served as chief of plastic surgery at Baltimore City Hospital (now Bayview Medical Center) and full time faculty at Hopkins. During the same year he completed certification by the American Board of Plastic Surgery In 1981 he joined the full time faculty at the University of Utah where he introduced microsurgical procedures not previously performed in the intermountain area. In 1986 he left the university to enter private practice in Salt Lake City, working principally at LDS Hospital, Primary Children's Medical Center, and Salt Lake Regional Medical Center . He passed the examinations for the Certificate of Added Qualification in Surgery of the Hand in 1990, the first year that the exam was offered to plastic surgeons.

WOW. This totally makes up for not having before and after pictures.

I am thinking my next closing will go towards breast augmentation. I also want to do smart-lipo and if I'm not totally satisfied, either a mini-tummy tuck or a full one. With all the weightloss, I think a mini may do it.

In any case, one boob for Christmas and one for my husband's birthday (Dec 21). Heee! :P

Super quick update - this day just gets better and better!

I had a follow up blood test after 2 abnormal test results on my liver enzymes.

My latest test results came back today.

Not abnormal... not even borderline...

SMACK DAB in the MIDDLE of NORMAL!

I cannot tell you the relief!!

No way. NO FREAKIN' WAY! 117.4!

Needless to say, I dosed.

I am a little concerned that my HCG is losing potency by the minute given I have stopped for a few days on this bottle already. I think if I stop again, I better stay stopped as the HCG must be fading and I don't want to screw with stabilization. 117.4! 116.8 on the old one! Holy cow! I am WELL into the really healthy BMI zone where I'm not nearly so concerned anymore. YIPPEE!!

Okay, I'm going to try to relay what the psychic said while it's still fresh.

Before doing the cards, she asked for my husband's birth date and looked at his numbers. Apparently he's going through "the dark night of the soul" right now.

I explained my past briefly and explained where we're at now, what is happening with the children here, our lack of friends, my family having moved away, a husband who is sleeping the weekends away, etc., and that I want to leave and that it's taken me a long time to give myself permission to even feel this way at all. I told her that his company is based in Portland and I do have family there and that's where I want to go. All this time, she was shuffling her cards. She doesn't know (or does she??? ;) ) that I have that very deck and also read tarot cards, and though people interpret cards and positions a bit differently, I could at least get the gist of the cards. She pointed out several "moving" cards and said, "I shuffled the cards myself on purpose in case you were being delusional about this. You're not blowing smoke up your ass. I didn't pull any illusion cards. Lots of change and moving cards." and then pointed out one that she said indicates a location by the water with fog. I'd never read that card that way before, but the picture did match that description.

She said my husband is stubborn and difficult, but that he loves me deeply and though he doesn't recognize just how miserable he is, it was obvious he's stuck. I told her that he's actually beginning to recognize this himself, albeit very slowly. On a number of occasions he's remarked the lack of life we have. He just doesn't equate that with being here, and he's partly right there too. It's easy to get stuck in a comfortable routine, not make time to hire a babysitter and go out. Problem is, there is no where here we really want to go.

So, she summed it up that with some very good dialog. That this wasn't me being selfish. That I have been agonizing about this, and examining my feelings against past patterns and this really doesn't have to do with that. That this has to do with not having a life here, no friends, no family, the children being told they're going to hell if they don't convert is unacceptable and they shouldn't have to deal with this, and that I am watching him slip away into a depression and that I'm saying this and doing this totally from a place of love. From caring enough about my family to insist this change. His position is safe in Portland, the market is great for buyer's out there and we have enough equity in this one that selling now would be just fine.

She said he may balk a bit but that's his pattern to do so but that he needs this move as well, and she sees him making the move. Time frame is within the next year. I'll be ready anytime between January 2010-January 2011, and he'll be ready closer to December 2010.

It was a relief to hear I wasn't being delusional. She pulls no punches and doesn't tell you what you want to hear. She really tuned into his energy.

So, that was the gist of it!

Thanks for EVERYTHING all y'all! *HUGS*

Crazy, busy day

I won't take too much time to write this evening. I'm on day 2 of a 3 day migraine, so I'm trying to do as little as possible!

The meeting with Suzanne Wagner was fantastic. Before I could even open my mouth, she said this next year was the year the earth under my feet moves. I have everything on tape, however the tape player I thought I had is apparently with my parents and the least expensive one I could find was $34 and I'm simply not shelling out that kind of cash for this. If I come across a really cheap one, I'll get it and play the reading into my computer and record it to my hard drive. She did exactly what I'd hoped which was to truly focus the energy of what it is I need to convey into a concise, fluid, and defenseless form.

OH, and she told me about a supplement to help support liver and kidney function I'd not heard about before. A mushroom grown in Tibet. Cordyceps - Plum Flower brand. I'm going to try it!

The rest of the day was spent getting paperwork for a transaction I'm working on in order, an escrow account opened, and showing homes before I had to pick the kids up the kids from school. Out early again and no school tomorrow.

I'll report back tomorrow. If I've dropped below 118.3, I'll dose. Otherwise, nope.

Thanks all!

OH and this is a day late, but happy birthday Sesame Street!

118.8 - up .5 - no dose today :)

This is the dance I'll be doing until I stop losing or until I run out of HCG. No dose today, though I also haven't "moved" in a couple days - we'll see what tomorrow brings! I am THRILLED with a last dose weight of 118.3 (and really, I started out with the old scale, so I just may take that kiss ass reading od 117.7) :D

I made the mistake and said yesterday was my reading. It's actually today in a couple hours. I have to keep this brief as I need to get the kids to school and then get me ready to go. After that, I have to show homes and deliver paperwork to the title company, all before I pick the kids up early from school this afternoon. I will be on the go, go, go until about 1 today. That said, I'm going to grill my chicken and take it with me so i can eat it on the road. I won't get a chance to come home for lunch and though I know some are brave enough to eat out, I ain't one of them!

I've been so happy lately I'm having a hard time getting back into that energy from before which I really need to do before the reading. If I have time, I'll go over the writing again.

OK, I'm going to have some coffee and get started! I'll report back when I can - I'm very excited about this reading!

Happy releasing and such!