Thursday, April 1, 2010

Going down.

Not by much... just .3 but a loss is a loss. Certainly not what I normally get from steak days so I think unless I am back "within range", my best bet is just to eat clean.

Part of why I've not been doing so well with the workouts is that I've not been sure what to do. So many options that I just get overwhelmed, so today I decided I will do at the very least 20 minutes of yoga and 20 minutes of pilates. If I manage more, great, but I must do AT LEAST the yoga and pilates. 40 minutes a day is totally doable and I generally will go longer once I start, since it feels so good. So my new 30 day challenge starts today. I managed the minimum, but today was busy getting ready for the closing which took much of my attention.

Speaking of... WE CLOSED!! My clients will have their keys tomorrow! WOOT! I am so happy for them. They are such nice people. My family is invited to visit in 2 weeks along with their mortgage broker and her family, so the kids can all have a play date and visit with their horse. It should be great!

I am feeling so much better since making my decision yesterday. I know I have a future in helping people release weight for good via the protocol that could end up as my main career, but right now is not the time for that. I am learning to trust my gut and know that everything happens just as it should.

I am beginning to feel that zen I've been looking for. Ironically, it's been since I realized that seeking balance was counter intuitive. That once I can let go seeking balance, I will find it. That the seeking is part of an old pattern of non-self acceptance. I am extreme. I am intense. I am driven. That's okay. Normal doesn't have to be my goal. I am extraordinary, and as soon as I can accept that completely, I will find that balance.

Love you guys. :)


lavenderdiva said...

I think it will take your being back on hcg to see any noticeable drops in your weight. Not that losing 0.3 is bad, hey its still weight that ISN'T on you anymore! But to get you past 120, you'll need to be on the 'stuff'.

The simpler you make your life, the easier it is to find balance. Avoiding stressors, and knowing what situations to avoid are key. You are getting better about recognizing those things that won't enrich your life, and saying 'no'. That is HUGE!!

love you!

helderheid said...

You're soooo right. I think I have a fighting chance of making 122 before I load again in a month, and may even surpass that, we'll see, but I definitely need another round to truly reset and release what I need to. Fortunately I am still a healthy BMI and in size 6s. I could have a lot more to complain about!

Lis said...

wonderful that you closed!! And I think you are right - helping others find their way with hcg would be right up your alley!!

Glad you are moving down!


Jen Payne said...

Congrats on the closing! You are learning a lot about yourself right now as we all are. HCG takes people on such an amazing journey. What most don't understand is that, so much of what we learn, has nothing to do about losing weight! I really feel that the true gift HCG gives you is the ability to take back power and control of your own life and the confidence and ability to make new decisions. I still wish you were working with me, but so glad we still get to "chat" everyday. Let's definitely workout when you get a break :)