Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Getting a grip (thanks all of you).

I've noticed a jump in weight mid month the last few months. I can safely assume this is hormonal. I am up an additional .3 today. 126.6, 6.6 above where I was on operation day. I am frustrated, but not going to let this get me down.

I seriously thought of delaying my after pictures, but that's silly. I need to get this done. I need to get my taxes filed. I need to get through my closing in the next week or so and I need to start working out in earnest. I haven't worked out since Friday, so I know it's not muscle I'm weighing.

I keep saying I want balance, and yet I'm not living that way. I've been scared and eating low carb, hardly any veggies, no fruit, and mostly protein. I can't go on like this. I have to, have to, have to practice what I claim I want. I'm sorry if I sound like a broken record. I'm trying to beat this into me!

You guys are so appreciated.


Jen Payne said...

You are in lifetime maintenance right. So start eating the way you want to eat for the rest of your life, along with the amount of exercise you enjoy and can reasonably keep up regularly for the rest of your life. Let the body come to where it wants at that point. Then from there, make decisions on if it is worth it to play the game of cutting calories or going nuts on exercise. Only you can decide. But it would be so hard to get back on the crazy dieting/yoyo merry go round. Maybe going up 5 or 10 lbs, firming up, eating good and doing moderate exercise while maintaining, is more sane than dieting, running ragged with workouts and being the lower weight.

lavenderdiva said...

Fear is so hard to let go of. Believe me, I know this from personal experience! However, to live the life we dream of, we've got to get past it.

I think you may be holding on too tightly to whatever number the scale is reading in your mornings. Don't measure yourself by that. Don't give it so much power to 'control' your day. I'm not saying to throw caution to the wind, and not weigh-in. But maybe at some point, work towards a weekly weigh-in.

If the scale reads a bit higher than your lowest-ever weigh-in, that's OK (to a certain point). You have the tools to lose whatever bit of extra weight you may want to. Just don't make yourself crazy and focus on a number. Instead, concentrate on how you feel & how your clothes fit. I really think you'll be happier, even if you are a few pounds over your lowest-ever weight. Our bodies tell us where we should be, weight-wise. Chasing a low number on the scale can put us into a vicious cycle of 'special' days, not working out, not eating carbs, concentrating on proteins. Its hard psychologically and trying physically.

Jen is right: you are making a plan for the rest of your life. Be healthy, enjoy this time, put fear aside. Eat healthy veggies, include carbs, balance yourself. Just remember moderation. You have a beautiful body and figure. Enjoy your family and be thankful for your work. Doing all these things, you will radiate beauty because you'll be happy and fulfilled-

just my 2cents....

much love to you (and hugs too!)

helderheid said...

I'll post a proper response tomorrow... I LOVE YOU GUYS