126.8

I had grand plans to elaborate on all that's going on and to ask for your input, but a full blown migraine of the worst kind hit me today. I need to have a cup of tea and go to bed. I just can't believe anyone even reads this anymore - thank you crumpled, laveder diva, and Caitlin! You're all such inspirations to me. I love you guys!

127.7

Hi guys.

It's been far too long.

I'm back on round umteenth!

So much has changed between the last post and now. I am in a new home in a new state! I am also doing a new round. This time, not to lose weight. It's a pattern interrupt. Much needed.

I chose to start this new post right before falling into bed exhausted, so I'll cut it short.

With the move, I've not been following you guys. I will now. I'm so sorry to have not kept in touch!

I have a lot I need to say. Lots of insights. Lots of feedback needed.

I will be better about being in touch! Moving is a bitch!!

Love you!!!

136.7 and cream in my coffee...

Ahhhh... It's so nice to have cream again! I'm on a 2 week hiatus before I start again. I won't load when I start back. I hope to achieve my goal weight by the end of May. My sister-in-law and her boyfriend will be visiting us for a week at that time. The timing works out well! Hundred-teens, here I come!

XOXOXOXO

VLCD 26, 137.8 Size... 6??

I am SO SORRY I didn't check in regularly.

I am in a whirlwind of crazy with my business, as well as household plans. I had no intention of falling off the planet.

I took my last dose this morning. I will start up again April 14.

I was fine with eating basically the same thing for 3.5 weeks until about 2 days ago. I need a break.

I ordered new HCG and now have enough for 100 days. I'll do 40 days worth before Summer break and keep the remainder for my next year Fat Tuesday round. :)

I bought Levis at Costco - size 6 short fit! I also bought an 8P and 6P dress from Ann Taylor Loft. How are they fitting?

Love you all! I'm so sorry for failing at blogging!

XOXOXOXO

VLCD 15, 141.4

The house is immaculate. I spent 4 hours on my desk alone! 2 garbage bags later, everything is organized. I'm thrilled.

My mom and sister have started the blood type diet. We're blood type O. I'm planning on switching over to that once I've released what I need to. What's fascinating to me is that when I look at the chart as to what is beneficial, what's neutral, and what causes problems, it totally coincides with my experience with those foods.

You may find this interesting: http://www.drlam.com/blood_type_diet/

I need to start sorting next, as well as start my continuing education classes. It's just too easy to put off!

XOXOXOXOOX :)

VLCD 13, 142.5

I'm obviously very happy to see another pound released!

I don't really have too much to say. I continue to procrastinate on my sorting. I plan on getting all the laundry done today, and then I'll attack my desk. I'v arranged to have a cleaner (she's so great) come in tomorrow to totally deep clean the house. I think that'll help focus me on doing the work I need to do without getting distracted by clutter. Maybe I'm doing this backwards!

Anyway, I'm wishing y'all wonderful success and I hope to hear how y'all are doing soon!

XOXOXOXO

VLCD 12, 143.6

Hi lovies,

I had such great plans to rip and tear and it didn't happen, however I think sometimes just hanging out with your family supersedes such plans. :) Now that everyone is either back to school or work, I'll get into my ripping and tearing projects. I won't have too much time today between work and errands, but I will get started. I have some continuing education I need to tackle for my real estate license that I can listen to on MP3s in the background. 

I'm still feeling fantastic. It always amazes me the amount of energy I have on HCG as well as how well I sleep at night. It's fantastic. My mood is still really high. 

I'm off to attack the day! 

XOXOXOXO

Love this tattoo. I may have to have it!

VLCD 9, 144.7!

Boom! Looks like we're off and running!

I don't have much to report other than how happy I am that things are moving and in the right direction!

I mixed a new batch last night and tested it immediately:

The HCG is strong in this one (spoken in Yoda). It showed positive immediately. 

I made a delightful discovery that the tilapia at Costco is almost the perfect portion size. I didn't bother cutting them to exactly 100 gram portions. In fact, it's less caloric than chicken so having a slightly larger size works out great. I marinate it in Bragg's, a little Tobasco, and a couple drops of plain stevia. I then steam it for about 3-4 minutes. It's absolutely delish! 

The sun is shining and the birds are chirping! Spring has sprung! I'll open the windows, crank the music, and start sorting. I think I'm nesting! Hehehe!

Love to all y'all!!!  Can't wait to hear how you're doing!

XOXOXO

VLCD 8, 145.7!

Yes, yes, yes, finally we're moving!

I am feeling really well. My energy is high and I'm feeling calm and positive. I'd forgotten how well I feel on HCG.  I sleep better, I'm less shaky, and I have a sense of calm.

I need to re-read my blog. I seem to remember that round that started so rocky but ended up being such a good one was the round when I started using the high purity HCG, which is what I'm using now. I really shouldn't depend on my memory though!

My taxes are DONE. I will drop them off today at my CPA, and then I have parent teacher conferences. It's a 3 day weekend for my kids and once they're back in school,  I'm going to start ripping and tearing.

My plan had been to have my last dose on the 28th of this month and spend the 1st week of April  in Oregon with my family for Spring Break. I had planned a 3 week break before another 30 day round, but I'm thinking I may only go 2 weeks and avoid another load day and just jump right back into it. I may also go 40 days versus 30. That may be all I need. I will be ordering more for future rounds probably tomorrow, just in case I need another round to get the last of this off, and for a round next year. Once a year, I'll do a round loading on Fat Tuesday and then VLCDs through lent (probably not the full 40 days though).

Thanks again for all the support!! It's nice knowing I'm not just talking to myself. ;)

XOXOXOXO

VLCD 7, 146.7 (WOOT!)

You were right, LD! Losses right around the corner, and it appears I just turned it!

I'll continue to cut out the psyllium husk and see what happens, though I highly suspect this has more to do with TOM than anything. If memory serves, I read somewhere how frustrating it is to start a round pre-TOM.

I'll be so curious what tomorrow brings. Also if memory serves, this happened once before and it still ended up an average of .5 pounds per day at the end of the round, regardless of the very slow start.

I'm almost done with my taxes. I believe I'll be done today. That will be a huge relief. Once that's done, I plan on ripping and tearing through my house and getting rid of everything that isn't seasonal that I've not touched in 6 months. It's time to clean house, literally.

LD and Caitlin, a huge thank you to you guys. It really is like old times! This is great. I look forward to continuing to watch us transform!

XOXOXOXOXO

VLCD 6, 148 (1.4 above start weight)

Well, that's the right direction again at least.

Honey, we're pregnant.

Despite being almost done with this bottle, I got it tested. It's definitely working. 

2 things I can think of - 1, it's almost the full moon and that's typically when I have my period (I've not had a uterus since 2003, but still have my ovaries). This would make sense. 2., I've never done this with psyllium husk before. I thought that would replace the melba toast and get me the fiber I need, and I'd read in many places it was fine. I'm going to drop it for now (though I hope that's not the problem as I love how regular it makes me - TMI, sorry). 

I'm going to keep this brief as I need to get my kids to school, and then the next few days are totally devoted to my taxes. I must get them done, and I have a year of receipts to type in to my program before I can even present them to my CPA. Why I don't do this monthly is beyond me! I always wait until the last minute.

LD and Caitlin, I'm dying to hear how it's going!

XOXOXOX

VLCD 5, 148.4 What the actual f**k.

I said I would go with the flow on this one. I was even okay with being still above my starting weight after 4 VLCDs. But to be .2 less than after my loading day on day 5? Are you kidding me?? Up 1.2 pounds overnight?!

I ate totally protocol and was just shy of 500 calories yesterday. My BMs are regular and good. I drink plenty of water. WTF?!?

I have no choice but to carry on but it looks like 2 rounds of 30 days ain't gonna cut it. Damnit.

Edited to add something I needed to see today...

Getting more organized here. VLCD day 4, 147.2

VLCD Day 3 was 147.5
VLCD Day 2 was 148.2
VLCD Day 1 (after load days) was 148.6
Load day 2 148.4
Load day 1 starting weight was 146.6

I have been sloppy with the weights, so here are the exact numbers. I'm still not at my starting weight before the loading. This, so far, is moving incredibly slowly, but I won't let that deter me.

I'd forgotten how emotional this all is. I wasn't thinking along those lines at all when I started, just that I needed to release this weight and this is how I knew how to do that.

I know I worked through a lot the last time, but the thing that strikes me so hard this time is how lonely I am. I know now that some bad habits have been born from that. I spend far too much time on my computer. I didn't realize though how much in self defense that was.

I'll elaborate tomorrow. I feel guilty and uncomfortable writing when I do get what limited time I do have with my husband and he just walked in the room. At least I'm organized with my numbers!

Until tomorrow!

Yesterday (day 1 VLCD), 148.6. Today, 148.2

Not a great loss after my first day of VLCD, however I told myself when I started this that I needed to be prepared for anything, that every round is different, and that there was a round when I didn't lose anything after my first day of the VLCD and it ended up being one of my best rounds.

I was so nervous about starting again, as it's been so long. It's just like riding a bike. So far, so good. Hopefully I won't get too bored. If the weight begins to fly off, I have no problem with boredom.

The weird dreams have started (I forgot about those!). I dreamed I actually was pregnant and people were accusing me of being delusional and paranoid. Fun!

I don't really have much to say. I just wanted to post my progress (or lack thereof). I'm determined to stay relaxed, go with the flow, and ride this round without (much) expectation.

OH, and I'm not going to take Maca this round. I found myself feeling flushed and dizzy at one point, and I think it may have been the maca. It's supposed to help balance hormones, and given I'm taking a pregnancy hormone, that may be counter productive. I'll start it back up after my round.

Off to have some lunch!

XOXOXOX

PS, LD check your PM on FB :)

148 day 2 load

I figured I'll need 60 days on HCG to lose what I want to lost. First I thought 1 42 day round and 1 21 day round, then I thought 3 short rounds, and now I've decided 2 30 day rounds. I am so ready to get back into the clothes I had to buy after releasing all that weight before.

I did some research, and psyllium husk is apparently okay on P2! So glad to find this out, as this is how I've been making sure I get enough fiber in my diet and it's made all the difference in my digestion. If you have a sluggish bowel, take psyllium husk!

I have started taking Maca for hormone balance. Anyone out there have experience with Maca and HCG?

Today I had 2 huge steaks cooked in butter for my load today. No sugar. No junk. Coffee with cream, and 2 steaks. And wine. No wine for a month! I'll be very curious about the weigh in tomorrow.

VLCD 1 in over a year tomorrow!

XOXOXOXO

146 day 1 load

Today I mixed my HCG (forgot the pregnancy tests!) and began day one of my load.

I forgot how much I hate, hate, HATE loading. I get sick fast. I don't eat typical load foods ever.

Tomorrow will be a steak day load which should have me feeling better.

My daughter donated her long hair to cancer patients today. I'll post pictures tomorrow.

I went to Costco and got my chicken, tilapia, asparagus, cucumbers, tobasco, and strawberries today! I'm set, aside from weighing and measuring each portion.

XOXO Load day 2 tomorrow, and then on to VLCD!

My mixing needles are in!

YAY!

I will mix in the morning and begin my load tomorrow! I have all kinds of things which will make me ill, and I'll follow day 1 of loading with 2 large grass fed organic steaks. 

I've not had time to research the doctor LD mentioned in the last posts comments, but I'll look tomorrow. Also, in place of Melba toast and grissini, I'm going to take 1.5 teaspoons of psyllium husk and .5 teaspoons of maca root. It should prove interesting.

I'm excited and I'm ready. After I release the weight I want to release, I will do one round a year, loading Fat Tuesday, and doing my round during Lent. It just seems so appropriate to me!

XOXOXOX

'Twas the night before P2...

Well, here it is. My saline arrived today, and my amber vials arrived Saturday. I bought oil free shampoo, crystal deodorant, oil free moisturizer,  stevia, and a new food scale. I'm set.

So far the plan is a 2 day load. 1st day will be food I love and never allow myself to have, and the second load day will be 2 large steaks to counteract the sodium and still allow for a good load day. I may change my mind on this and only do the steaks, but I'm not sure. 

I'm nervous. It's been over a year since I've done this! I'm really hoping it's like riding a bike. I used to be able to answer questions with total ease about the protocol. I found myself scouring old notes to try to remember how to mix it! 

This works for me and is the only thing that has. I have enough HCG to get back to the 100teens. I should be able to maintain that with a P3 diet and a yearly HCG round. I'm hypothyroid and can expect to be careful about food combining for the rest of my life. That's fine by me! 

I'm scared and excited. I will need to scour the blogs to see who else is doing this again for moral support. I can't wait to fit in my jeans again!

XOXO, my lovies.

PS - I think I'll read my blog from start to finish tomorrow. :)  

It's official. I need another round. 147

I had so much shame wrapped into this before, I had a hard time coming to grips but the fact of the matter is, I've always been careful and this isn't my fault. My body does fine for 3 months post HCG and then I need to be ultra careful. Even then, things come undone. I would have done another round had it not been for the medical stuff I was dealing with. Because I couldn't nip it in the bud, it creeped up on me.

After a lot of research, I don't trust the company conducting the heavy metal urine tests. If it were just a scam, meh. The fact that treatment can cause death; I need another opinion. They only test your urine with a drug to provoke the metals and then compare them to normal tests of the average population. They're supposed to test your urine without the provoking agent and then with it and compare those results.

So, all this said, I'm planning on one 42 day round and one 21 day round. This should get me to where I need to be. I also know that for maintenance as a hypothyroid person, this will need to be done annually or bi-annually. Period. You know what? There's no shame in that. 3 weeks once or twice a year? Sign me up.

I need to lose 30 pounds

I'm starting another round or 2. More to come.

I'll share more soon, but for right now, a very not safe for work funny!

Happy New Moon and Chinese New Year!

I deleted the last post as it was so melodramatic.

My goodness, so much has happened and time has gone by.

I've really missed writing here. I'm not sure what happened, but the blog was warning of a possible malware issue if you clicked on it, so I just abandoned the blog altogether.

For some reason, it's functioning again.  I am also in need of it, so here I am.

I would LOVE to do another round of HCG, but until the heavy metals are cleared from my tissue, it's too dangerous.

I've not experienced foot drop since January of last year, so this is excellent news. I still have issues with my hands now and then, but it's nothing I can't live with.

In preparation for my treatments to remove the lead from my system, I've been working on cutting down/out alcohol, and taking supplements to support my liver.

Last time I weighed myself, I was 136. This was in November. I've not weighed since. I know it's more and I hate that, but now my health needs to be priority #1, not my weight  (though I know they're related). It's frustrating as last year this time I was around 114-118. I know I can get back there again once this lead is out and I can do another couple rounds.

I am beginning my Tae Bo today that I got for Christmas. I'd planned on starting before, but I ended up with that horrible crud that's been going around.

I have no more excuses, so today I begin. I was in the best shape of my life right after I had my son and started Tae Bo. I know it can whip me into shape again. I'm also doing protein shakes that have me feeling amazing, mixed with psyllium powder. Here it is, for those interested: http://proteinpowder.mercola.com/pure-protein.html . It is full of pro-biotics, and even has coconut oil in it. It's organic and provides a punch of 20 grams of protein per serving. It's my goal to do a bit of a fast with it starting tomorrow (I had steak in the fridge, so I'm doing a steak day today).

I've also ordered Red Maca. It's worth googling. The health benefits are extraordinary. I heard about it on TV as a boost for the female libido. I could use some help in that department, so I began to research. It's a wonder food! I am so looking forward to adding it into my diet.

It's time for a new collage. Normally I do this at the 1st of the year, but I wasn't feeling it. Now it's the first of the Chinese New Year and a New Moon, so I think today may be the day. I'm very curious as to what my subconscious wants me to know.

I'm a bit frightened about the next process of the heavy metal detox, but I'm also excited. I truly feel there is a major transformation ahead for me that I am just on the edge of.

My goal this year is to be the healthiest person I know. If I manage to squeeze back into my size 2 jeans, great, but more than anything, I'm striving for balance and good health. I want to be around for a very long time, especially for my family.

Thanks for being here! I've missed you!

PS - this was truly a beginners post. I have a lot to share that I'm warming up to.

SOPA