Wednesday, July 14, 2010

P3 Day 21 - 113.7 (- 1, - 3 of LDW)


I'm not stressing too much over the drop. As I said before, according to my blood work, I was ovulating when I stopped HCG so I may have been hanging on to water weight when I weighed in with my LDW.

Thank you all who chimed in on my last post. It's a touchy subject that doesn't necessarily have any easy answers. I know I need to come from a place of compassion and love when it comes to approaching this with him. I know he's been responding to my anger, not my hurt and my love. I need to let go of the anger. I need to forgive him and let that resentment go, or we won't get anywhere with this and he's way too important to me to allow my anger to get in the way of getting through to him with my love and concern.

What I can do is work on my kids. I'm talking to them daily about healthy choices. I can practice what I preach and make healthier choices for myself. I can meditate and work on letting go of anything that no longer serves a purpose in my life, including old habits, and including fear, stress, and hiding ( my worst habits).

Thanks once more for the support. I'm evolving and there are growing pains along the way, and you all make it so much easier!


Lis said...

I love this post Helderheid, becuase you are so right in your focus. With that kind of approach, it will be easier on you as far as being able to handle the decision making process he will have to go through. You are so balanced!!
Love to you my cyber buddy! :)

helderheid said...

Thanks so much Lis! Love you too! I'm working on it - not always achieving it but working on it. I'm already feeling much of my resentment dissipating. *HUG*

Kathryn said...

I totally agree with you about working on your kids and modelling healthy choices in all aspects of life. My main concern is that my eating habits will transfer to my girls and while I watch what my 10 yr old eats I don't want to get obesessed worrying that she will gain weight and overeat like I did. She's a healthy weight and plays sports but I'm still terrified that she will end up overeating because of watching me and my issues with weight.

Like you say - this journey is one of evolving and there will be blips and pain along the way but it can only get better as we go along. You're a grounded, compassionate, great person - and you're doing wonderfully on this journey. Keep up the good work and sharing the introspection.

helderheid said...

Kathryn, thank you for such a sweet and thoughtful note. I really appreciate it and I understand totally where you're coming from with worrying about passing on the obsession to our kids. My kids have watched me count every calorie, work out to the point of exhaustion, and talk about my weigh ins. I catch myself often, but I fear they'll be obsessed as well.

Thank you again. *hug*