Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Feeling pretty petty.

I watched (again) "Schindler's List" with my son. I wanted him to have a real grasp as to what happened. Boy, did I ball my eyes out. Damn, I can't believe I complained about my weight.

Thanks for all of your support. Fact is, I have no control here. It is what it is and will be what it will be. I've stuck to the protocol and haven't cheated, so there isn't anything I can pin this on.

I've still yet to go buy a new scale. I'm just so tired right now. Maybe this evening when my husband is home. I'll leave him with the kids and I'll slip away. Lord knows I could use a break from them.


Christy in Seattle said...

Aww ... hope you're feeling better soon!

lavenderdiva said...

Hello friend! You are having a rotten time, I hear that. Here's what I think is going on, FWIW. I think you are going through all the symptoms of TOM, without the actual TOM. And I think that helps explain your weight gain. To me, all your symptoms point directly to that. I can't say for sure, but I have a pretty strong hunch, that when this passes, you will see a very nice loss.

I'll just bet it felt pretty good getting all those emotions out, by having a good cry this afternoon. You may have unwittingly done yourself some real good today by watching 'Schindler's List'. As sad as the movie is, I think you have a lot of pent-up emotions swirling around inside that are begging to get out. Crying is always a good release.

Hang in there friend, you will feel better soon. I'm sending you LOTS of hugs! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

helderheid said...

Thanks both of you. Lavenderdiva, I think you're SPOT ON - all of it. That's the only thing that makes sense.

I think the cry did me good too. Now I just need to sit down and write out the rest of the story.